Just Plain Strange

The impossible has happened!!!!!!!!!!!!!i have agreed to go to amtgard with my oldest brother Jeb,his wife Kris,their roommate Mel and my man Larry. Amtgard is simply awhole group of people fighting with foamy sticks in reinactments of medevil times and other eras. Well im not going to join in on the madness but i will watch as Larry gets his ass kick.he he he he. Just joking babe. I hoooope he is good ....besides he is tall and pretty quick. Well im going to go now and be completely amused. amy ps Kristen im off on tues and wens wanna do something.

i have to make up my mind. I have to either go to san antonio or stay here with my great boyfriend and put up with my lesbian stalker. i want to go to san anton. to start over in school and in my life without ashley. But then i want to stay here with larry and have the best relationship with him as possible(and the greatest sex imaginable). Either way i look at it there are pros and cons for both.
Going_ 1. i get away from Ashley's crazy behave and become sane again.
2. i get to start over with school
3. ill be able to watch over my dying grandfather and grandma who can't even see to clean the house.
4. i won't be able to see Larry everyday like i have been for the past 3 weeks.
5. i won't get to see any of my friends at all.
Staying_1. ill get to stay with Larry and see how far our relationship will go.
2. Deal with school and go back anyway
3. Put up with my crazed lesbian stalker and find some way to move out other than moving out of town.
4. Having my friends around me all the time instead of feeling all alone.
5. Not having to put with my mother all the damn time and her craziness
Well if anyone can help me sort this out then please leave a comment. I need guidance.

Current Mood: confused

Well i haven't written in awhile simply due to the fact i lost all interest in people. I should most likely tell you what has happened since my last entry. Well Chris and i broke-up simply due to the fact that he was an alcholic , weed smoking idoit that wasn't as commitied to the relationship as i. But oh well im much better off without someone whi is lacking in moral fiber. From there i was premoted from crew member to certified employee which meant an increase of pay by a whole $1. I know what your thinking whopptee-do a whole $1 but hey when your only making 5.35 , 6.35 seems to be a big difference. Anyways i was at Auntie Annes for about 8 more months of complete hell so i put in my two week and wanted to but did not say "fuck yall".But only because im a nice person(yeah right).I then went to work as a waitress at Applebees. I wish the traffic was better and the tips better but what can i do. Nothing just put up with the idoit customers who like to think we make more than 2.13 an hour and that someelse will tip better. Guess what buddy no one does. Then i met a good guy from N. Carlina, Charlie. And we dated a few weeks then he made me read his ex-girlfriends love letter to show me how much he loved her and she loved him. That was clearly a sign of the dreaded "not over the ex" situation. I tried to make the best of it but was unable to put up with a 2nd rate relationship with someone who i did care about. And in the middle of all this silly drama i met and fell in love with the most caring guy in the world. Even though he is 27. He is on the same level as I which just makes everything better. We are two people who simply found each other with out realizing that we were perfect for each other. Larry lives with my oldest brother, his wife, my sister and her boyfriend which can make things alittle weird but hey you don't choose who you love and the reasons behind it. ITs not looks ,money or how he makes me look to others. its simply because larry is larry and that is the best thing he could ever be to me.

I have given all that is me to chris. Because i yes i amy nicole haverkamp is in love. There is not much to say except "i was the last again" damn it all will nothing go right in the world. He he he oh well.the only thing that sucks is that chris is leaving for 4 days and won't be back until friday. im gonna miss him so much. This sucks But i made him two sandwhiches chips some cookies and a dr.pepper. Yep im sad.

i just finished reading everyones updated journals including A's from the 18th. Well i am here to say that i am not in love. Love is when you love their faults because that is what what they are. So what if chris smokes to much and drinks alittle too much. and can't get the grease entirely off his hands and always i mean it always misses at least one spot when he shaves it never fails. Ok so i really really like him. This is not fair. Its not my fault that i would rather be with him than anywhere else in the world. i get in troble so much now because i break curfew. Yes i amy nicole haverkamp has a curfew!!!i think i don't need one but because of the simple fact that i still live with my mother (and i say mother because my dad really doesn't give a shit as long as im safe)she thinks i should have a curfew. So here it is my embrassing curfew from hell 10 p.m. on weeknights and 3 am on weekends. how dumb is that!!! y can't i just move out?!!! oh yeah not enough money which sucks. But hey at least i eat free. It was so funny last night Mary (chris cousin he lives with), chris, their new roommate John and i were all talking about what is considered cheating. Mary and i both agree that if a guy is lying down with a girl in her undies and he is in his then that is cheating due to the fact of what was going to happen. Chris disagreed he said that because nothing happened it didn't count as cheating. I looked at him and asked that if he were with another girl and they both were in a state of undress and i walked in i shouldn't count that as cheating. And he would jump up in surprise. He said no that he would hide behind the girl. Which i thought to be funny. I dont think chris will ever cheat on me. I have that much faith in him. Plus he know about my dad so he understands that i couldn't deal with it if he did. Even though its proably more of a temptation for him since he ain't getting any from this girl. So he'll just have to beat the heat. HE HE HE thats what mary calls it. But mary also beleives in no sex before marriage and im not sure about it. Its somtimes so very ........ well girls you know what its like. by the way love u a!!!!!

hello all, Well chris finally met the parental units. I was so nervous and worried. Even chris was surprised at how nervous i was. He thought it was no big deal. SO i explained to him that hes the first guy i ever brought home other than friends. He didn't eat much but i think it was because he was nervous too. After supper we sat down and watched Pirates of the Carbiann, he likes that show. cassie was so mean to me and him. At least i put away all of my pic all but one in the main hall. Everyone liked him. Then the next day i went to his house from 6p.m. to 2 am and it feels like such a short amount of time. Chris was so sweet he said i was sexy and beautiful. I couldn't help but laugh at those comments. Since ive never been told those things before I was truly surprised. He even said he likes my love handles. He he he. Hes so wonderful.

Current Mood: restless

I love going over to chris's. Last night i went over and we cuddled until about 1 then finally fell asleep together on the living room floor watching some dumbass movie.The movie was some based in South Africa and this guy was in a hooker bar. Then this big black lady trys to get him to pay for sex only the lady was in a belly dancer outfit and it was so wrong. I started to laugh and said to chris " i would have to have Elizabeth Herleys body to wear something like that" and he said he thinks i would look good in something like that. I however would never wear anything like that unless the lights were off and i was getting paid.Anyway we fell asleep together and i did not wake up until almost 3(in the morning).Mom was not even mad at me. Which i was very greatful for.

YAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!! HE like my friends!!!! That Saturday night started early for me (about 2 or 3) because i went over early to help kristen clean. And i'm glad i did because if i hadn't the trailer would not have been clean by the time everyone got there.After Kristen and i cleaned the trailer we got ready for everyone.Kristen wore a cute orange-red slightly scooped shirt with black pants and i wore a borrowed red sleeveless shirt that had ties at the shoulders and blue-jeans.Ryan (Kristens') arrived first in his leather jacket and his skull necklaces, which in my opinion is so silly but hey whatever floats his boat. A. and Ryan arrived next and A was dressed in a tee and shorts and after seeing what we were wearing, she ran back to her car and got some different clothes (a mini skirt and a blue tank). After A was done getting all pretty we started waiting for my chris. But i couldn't get intouch with him which i did start to worry b/c it was almost 7 and he hadn't called me. So A,Ryan and i want to Ryans truck that was back almost in downtown lake charles. On our way back chris did call so i headed over to his place(i was still in A's car). Well A got out of the car about the same time as me and i had to introduce ryan and A which i didn't mind at all (I would have minded if it was some1 else). Then we took his truck over and he parked behind me. Well the night went great chris ate 2 bowls of gumbo and a peice of garlic bread. OHH I ALmost forgot to mention my mom broght over the garlic bread, beer and wine. Well about midnight chris left i didn't want him too but he had to. I should have sat on him(he he he).

Yesterday about 8:15 Chris showed up at Auntie Annes and Kristen was already there when he walked up. Kristen and Chris just kinda stood there talking alittle bit..then Kristen open her mouth and asked chris if he was going to the gumbo night at her place saturday which is all good. But i hadn't asked him yet so i then after telling kristen i hadn't asked him i did. He stayed there until about 8:45 and left. And after i had left work i realized i had a voicemail and guess what?!? it was chris asking me if i wanted to come over and watch a movie. Which i did!!! (after calling cassie, my sister and kristen to cover for me and say i was studing)i stayed at his place until 1 a.m. and it was great.GREAT!!!!!!!!! when i got there he was waiting outside and we walked inside and i met his cousin and her fiancee, who were eating. Chris and i went into the livingroom and started watching Night OF the Roxbury, which is so funny. Then his cousin and her fiancee went to bed while chris and i stayed up. We then watched the end of Old School and Dude Wheres My Car and some comedians and that was funny.And he also found just about every tickle spot on my back, which is very ticklish. Then about 12:45 i had to go or im sure mother would have called and called and called. So we stayed outside for like 20 mins kissing, hugging and trying to say goodnight.Oh and the cutest thing of all: we saw a preveiw for Interveiw With A Vampire and he got jealous when i said i thought Brad Pitt and Tom Cruise were hot.I told him that there was no way id ever stop talking to him even if brad or tom entered the picture(probably b/c ill never met them). Then i asked him if he thought any Actresses were hott and he said no just me.

Does noone want to leave me any comments?